since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
When I turned 30, a friend gave me Danielle LaPorte’s book, The Desire Map, for my birthday. The most important concept therein, for me, was the idea that to be content and fulfilled, you must make choices based on how they (will) make you feel. In the workbook, she helps you to narrow down your options to a list of, say, four feelings. You can then use her journals and dayplanners to help root all of your daily choices – big and small – in achieving those desired feelings. Hypothetical example: if one of my “core desired feelings,” as she calls them, is relaxed, I might pause and think twice before signing up for five weekday nights in a row of volunteering at my child’s school after working 9-5 all day. Her book and daily planner were immensely helpful for me during a tumultuous transitional period of several years that came thereafter.
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A FEELING IS MUCH STRONGER THAN A THOUGHT. (5000x stronger—see my other posts on findings from the @heartmathinstitute Creating our lives/worlds, starts with a feeling. Feelings start in the heart. ❤️ Stay with me. When we turn to our heart’s wisdom for guidance, we’re *intentional* creators—so beautiful. But… and… when we CHOOSE the feelings that we want to cultivate—well, then we become SUPER CREATORS. We’re creating our reality… with our feelings.✨ How do you want to feel… think… be? Your heart knows. (Some heart-amplifying practices to help 👉 daniellelaporte.com/commune)
Now here I am, nearly five years later. One (almost two!) babies later, I do not have/find the time to journal daily or select new core desired feelings each New Year’s Day, but I will never forget the important lesson of rooting my choices in how they will make me feel. As moms, we can often be all go-go-go, focusing on our children’s wellbeing and meeting their needs (or wants?) first. As wives, we can often put our spouses’ feelings first. As employees or volunteers, we can often put the supervisor’s wishes and demands first. We must remember to think about how our choices will make us feel at the end of the day or week, or I fear that we will end up doing more damage than good.
I got to thinking about feelings again today because I had two strikingly different interactions this week. One person left me feeling seen, appreciated, and important; I was glowing and bubbly when the conversation ended. The other person left me feeling unsure, unappreciated, and unimportant; I was vaguely disappointed and downtrodden when the conversation ended. Since I am rooted in how I want to feel in all aspects of my life, I can clearly look at those two interactions and see which relationship is going to help me realize my core desired feelings and which is not worth my effort (no matter how hard I want to try to make it work).
As moms, spouses, employees, volunteers, we will do ourselves, our families, and our communities a great service by taking time to identify how we want to feel before making choices. Rooting in our core desired feelings will make us better people who can shine a little brighter for our tribe.