Hi. My name is Crady. I’m one of the owners of MMC. And I have severe writer’s block. But not just writer’s block. I have severe creativity block.
Ever since this whole thing started, I’ve managed to keep my head above water. My house is clean-ish (I’m not afraid to eat in it, even though there may be kid stuff everywhere). I’ve cooked 99% of our meals at home. The kids’ schooling got done (sometimes it took everything in me to get it done everyday, but it did). Memphis Mom Collective underwent a rebrand, and we’ve continued to publish content and be active on social media.
But I’ve just been surviving. Not thriving.
I love to write. It’s the main reason I wanted to buy the blog: to write. My oldest child has special needs and for so long that was how I processed all the complex and complicated emotions that go along with having a child with special needs; I wrote about it. I got it out of me and onto (in this case) a word processor and that process alone made me feel so much better.
So the fact that I currently have writer’s block (and yes, I understand the irony of my WRITNG a post about having writer’s block) is extremely frustrating. I feel like I have nowhere to vent. Nowhere to express my emotions. ESPECIALLY because in addition to not being able to write about them, I also can’t see any friends. Phone calls and Zoom are only so good.
And you know what’s really not helping with this writer’s block? Social media. I’m usually not one to get jealous of other people’s lives on social media. I know that it is an unrealistic version of life. But I see people making bread. Or doing pottery. Or painting. Or doing the cutest crafts with their kids. Or picking up a brand new hobby. And I just feel stuck. (I mean, I’m not a “Pinterest mom” on the best of days, but we didn’t even do my kids’ school’s virtual field day. I just don’t have any motivation!)
Look, there is no “point” of this post. No lesson to be learned (but man I wish there was). Just know that if you are feeling what I’m feeling, you aren’t alone. If you are 100% in survival mode, I am too. If at the end of the day, your kids are clean-ish and fed and that is all, then you are doing just fine.
I’m hoping that as the world opens up, as we slowly get back to it, as we get to see our people, I will open back up to my creative side as well.